Lyrics

thank you lily allen.

i needed this song more than anything in the whole wide world.

I could say that I'll always be here for you,
But that would be a lie and quite a pointless thing to do,
I could says that I'll always have feelings for you
But i've got a life ahead of me, I'm only 22,

Chorus
Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder,
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older,
And now you've gone it feels as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage,

You always made it clear that you hated my friends,
You made me feel so guilty when I was running around with them,
And everything was always about being cool,
And now I've come to realise there's nothing cool about you at all,

Chorus
Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder,
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older,
And now you've gone it feels as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage,

Chorus
Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder,
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older,
And now you've gone it feels as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage

goodbye to my favorite summer.

i am so ready for school to start.

i know it sounds crazy, but i am actually excited for school to start.

nervous yes, but excited. 

this summer has been the best and the most life changing of any other summer in my entire life. I grew up and became more of the person I will be for the rest of my life and less of the child that I was for the last sixteen years. It used to scare me that I am not the same as I was on June 18th, 2009. But now, looking back on my summer, I realized that those changes did not come from me moving away from who I am as a person, but from moving closer.

This summer I had the most amazing time. Oxford was the best experience of my life, one I hold to me so dearly it is unparalleled with any other experience. It seems so far in the past now, almost so much that it scares me to death. I miss my oxford family.

Tomorrow, I will step into Rindge and become a Junior in high school. The most important year. Many of my peers complain it will 'suck ass' and be 'awful' but I like a challenge. I like the thrill of assignments and work and learning. I like progress. I also like the social aspect- I miss seeing people every day. I have amazing classes and tomorrow will bring me one step closer to being in them.

This summer I really discovered who I am. My limits, my boundaries, but also how far I am willing to go on things and what I am willing to give up. I am much more aware of what I want in life, both socially and educationally. I finally got my cartilage pierced. I found out what it's like to be dumped, and it sucks. it's painful and really really embarrassing, but it's also relieving and liberating. 

goodbye summer. goodbye sleeping in and staying up late and fun.

hello rest of my life, hello finally being a junior, hello ALMOST BEING SEVENTEEN!

AHHHHHHHHHH.

glass half full of NASTY WATER

I'm trying to be in a good mood because i am very happy except that sucky things have happened to me and i want to scream.

1. last night i was swinging on a swing and the seat CAME OFF the chains. I literally had to grasp onto the chains while the seat fell from under me. i then landed on my back and my hands were numb. 

2. My earring holder fell onto the floor and exploded everywhere. All earrings were recovered except one of my diamond earrings my dad gave to me for christmas. It is hiding in my room somewhere.

3. I bought Snow Leopord for my mac, and when i put the disk in to download my macbook scratched the living daylights out of it so now the disk is unusable. i had to call and get them to send me another one which cost me $16!

4. i lost my graphing calculator and therefore will need to buy a new one. out of my own money. which i do not have a lot of.

GAHGAHGAHGAHGAH.

on the bright side i had a wonderful time with marlees yesterday and we laughed so much i completely forgot i am starting junior year and will have soo much work!

school starts on tuesday and i couldn't be more excited! I have amazing teachers, classes, and soo many people are in them too. I can't wait to start student government and mentoring, and to have dance company start up again. I am so lost without it! 

Being back in cambridge is so amazing. I love my home! 

PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY ARE BETTER THAN OTHER PEOPLE PISS ME OFF.

SO.

MUCH.

we're all teenagers. get over it!

life is wayyyy to short for splenda. 

i hate splenda with a burning passion.

splenda is actually incredibly disgusting and makes you sick and it tastes like soap.

be who you are and say what you feel, because those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter.

- dr seuss

Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.

I need to stop wanting to be other people and just be happy being Sierra.

I need to stop taking people for granted because they're not someone else.

I need to stop wishing and beating myself up for absolutely nothing.

I have amazing friends, an amazing life, I am happy. I just need to remind myself of that sometimes.

Passion

I LOVE PHOTOGRAPHY.

So

so so much.

when i take a photograph and it turns out well, I get a feeling I cannot explain. I LOVE taking pictures. I love having a piece of work I am proud of, something I can show people and say "this is what I love. I made this. This is my creation"