I'm supposed to be asleep. I wish I was, but I am still wide awake in front of my computer screen attempting to finish my history paper bibliography.
Is it weird I don't like to be called bitch?
That word has always hurt me, even when it comes from my best friend. Today, I was called that by someone really close, meant as a term of endearment. It made me cry.
I hate being called bitch. I find it horrible how girls use those words to address friends. I prefer words like dear. love. sweetie. honey. nice words. words that make others feel special and loved and appreciated instead of ugly. the word bitch makes me feel like a bad person.
I have never called any of my my friends a bitch. Not joking, not being serious. I want to confront her and tell her its not personal. I just hate the word. I'm not a bitch. I'm nice. too nice. And I in no way deserve to be called one.
Today was a good day. Alex had A lunch due to a no-show history teacher, and we sat on the bridge and talked about his double jointed thumb and freshman and engineering.
he makes me so happy.
The day after tomorrow is not only our five months but also his birthday. What are you supposed to give your boyfriend for his birthday? I have no idea, and I have one day to figure it out. dammnn.
Right now my adorable dog is lying next to me snoring. She's so beautiful.
1 comment:
1) I just realized how much I use the word "bitch" jokingly to my friends. You're right..it feels a little icky, now that I think about it. I think I shall try to cut down.
2) Is it weird that your blog posts, like, calm me down when I've had a stressful day? Cause they do. Hmm.
3) <3
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